As you know I'm a pretty passionate person. When I was a young Art student back in the U.K, I was very strong minded and some people would say I had a bit of an attitude. Basically, I used to just say what I thought and didn't care about the consequences.
Apologies, but I'm having one of those moments right now!
As you get older you tend to mellow out and those things you used to get het up about, you no longer feel is necessary to waste your energy on. However, when it comes down to my kids, things are different. That little red head I used to be seems to pop up from no where and supports my instincts. But as I get older, she is unfortunately getting fainter!
Being a mum, you always wonder "am I doing it right, could I be doing better, is there a different way"? In the beginning you worry and stress about everything, as your kids grow you think it's going to get easier, but it doesn't, the goal posts change and you just have to adapt and change with it. Granted, my girls are now 8 and 5 so I no longer have to worry about nappies, prams, baby food, teething etc. But I now have to worry about education, bullying, self esteem...the list goes on and on!
As you may know, I have had many issues with my youngest and she has seen many professionals over the years, but still I question myself and the judgements I have made and am still making with both my children.
No more. I am right and I am sticking to that from now on!
I'm not a veteran mum, but I have learnt a lot over the years. I see the mistakes that I've made and I've learnt and am still learning from them every day. I also see that I question myself time and again and this never seems to stop.
However, something has happened this week that has made me stop. I have finally realised that it doesn't matter if you are a first time mum, if your child is in child care, prep or Grade 10. If you have a niggling doubt , an inkling about your childs health or education, you must listen to your gut as soon as it starts to call out to you and DO SOMETHING ABOUT IT! YOU as the mother are (in my point of view) 100% right in your instinct, so do something now, don't keep questioning yourself. If nobody listens to you, go find someone who will. Don't leave it until it's too late.
And breathe! I'm so glad I got that off my chest!